Even the Third Time, It Didn't Get Through

Decluttering.

This one word has helped me many times in my life.

I try not to hold on to too many things—whether they are possessions or relationships. I let go of what I don't need and try to live lightly. That has become my way of life.

Still, every now and then, someone slips through those rules.

The trouble is, he is a good person. He is honest, thoughtful, and easy to like. Before I knew it, we had become friends, quietly, like snow covering a garden overnight.

A few days ago, he sent me a thank-you message on LINE.

“Thank you very much. See you again.”

It was polite, warm, and perfectly written.

Yet it felt like a piece of clear glass—transparent, but reflecting none of what I had been feeling.

I started to write a reply.

Then I stopped.

A week has already passed.

The house I grew up in has its own ways. I won't explain it here, but he has experienced it twice before.

Did he forget?

Did he simply not notice?

Or did he notice but think it wasn't important?

Whenever I remember his small action the third time, that tiny feeling of discomfort grows a little stronger.

To be honest, I don't want to let the same thing happen a fourth time.

If I stay silent, everything will probably seem fine.

But is that really kindness?

I don't think so.

Silence can wear the mask of kindness, while underneath, it is dishonesty.

Maybe he truly doesn't know.

If that's the case, then I should tell him.

Not to blame him.

Not to push him away.

But because I hope we can continue our friendship with honesty and respect.

That is my responsibility to him—and to myself.

I am usually a very direct person.

Yet here I am, spending an entire week thinking about one short LINE message.

For someone who believes in letting go, I am strangely unable to let go of these few words.

It makes me smile.

Even so, I keep searching for the right words.

Some feelings can only be carried by words.

Some distances can only be crossed by words.

So I keep writing.

Thankfully, today I have someone to ask for advice—AI.

I may simplify my relationships, but my conversations with AI keep growing.

It is a small irony.

And somehow, it has become part of who I am today.

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